Little China beyond China

The Fuzzy Blueprint. One of my father's ideas and one which we have had major philosophical and theological discussions over. The basic tenet goes that even though every person's destiny is not pre-determined per se, there is an underlying path that has been chosen for everyone and that by merely relaxing into the Fuzzy Blueprint, by letting it guide you, the right decision will eventually be made. Now, even though I am far from comfortable with some elements of this theory, it is an appealing one (Although I do now refer to my father as Obi-Wan whenever he mentions it). At least it is to me. I would not be pretentious enough to claim to speak for the clamouring proletariat. Why do I bring up this fuzzy blueprint, you ask? Well, because if something like it does exist, I have never felt it more strongly than in China. Eight months ago, I stepped onto the tarmac at Beijing Capital Airport to be met with a swirl of marrow-freezing wind. Now, I find myself in the IEEA office, drafting complex proposals for international education standards. Accusations may fly, at this point, of my boastful nature or inveterate luck. Far from me, either of these. I wrestle daily (or at least every four days, a man's gotta be able to have some fun) with unanswered questions buzzing through my head. Do I deserve this? Why is this happening to me? As always in times of great wondering, I turned to those around me for answers. And a revelation struck me through these conversations. A revelation which is so simple it is an insult that I did not fully realise it before. Everybody struggles with these questions. However, after embarking on such a gloomy opening to this post, events of recent weeks have perked up my confidence to a degree unseen since Moses' morale boost as the Red Sea parted. I will not fill up your valuable attention span with details of various projects but suffice it to say that work satisfies me as of present. I have just signed a year contract with IEEA as Project Manager and accordingly will be extending my stay in China through to September 06.